I have a new understanding for people who are dealing with tragedy in their lives. A new understanding for people who have lost their parents, children and loved ones. I have a new understanding, a new kind of compassion for people who feel this pain. I have a new understanding for my friends who have lost parents and siblings before I. There has not been a day gone by that I don't cry and ache. I have given more hugs to strangers and held patient's hands to tell them that everything will be ok and I'm sorry for their own pain.
Today a patient came in named Joseph, just like my daddy. He was aching and sad. His mother died unexpectedly yesterday. I hugged him. I cried with him. My heart aches for him.
Sometimes I don't feel like pretending, so I don't. Sometimes I may seem weird and standoffish, it's because I am. I don't like to pretend. Well, now this blog sounds like a weird emo chick...maybe I am.